Sometimes I dream in black and white.

I’m a simple person at heart. I want happiness, and simplicity, and love. But I need spectacular things, found in very simple ways. I’m most comfortable in silence – when I don’t have to be sarcastic to dance around my emotions I so blatantly don’t know how to properly express without feeling entirely awkward in my own skin. My favorite trips are the ones with no major landmarks to visit, no museums, no famous “so-and-so slept here” visits, just blind wandering and pure visual observation. It’s during these wandering, pointless, destination-free jaunts that I feel most alive, and  feel that perfect strangers can see that glowing out of me, when they strike up conversations with me out of nowhere or ask me to hold their baby or pay the extra penny for my coffee before I even start rifling through my purse for it. And it’s been too long since I’ve had one of these trips. I need a city and a day, at least once a month I think, to just up and leave wherever I’ve been currently planting roots, so that I can wander and explore and feel rejuvenated so that I don’t end up quitting my job and selling off all of my things and wandering forever. I need silence, and I need to wander. And I need someone to join me every so often who feels as strongly about this as I do.

That, is my ultimate goal in life above all else.

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